Friday, January 7, 2011

Why is boredom so boring?

I'm in a state of ennui.

Aren't there those days? Do you ever have them? What do you do with them? What do you do with yourself?

Work is putting me off. I haven't got a thing done today. I don't want to get a thing done today. I just don't want to do this work, whetever this work is.

I don't want to move. I want to be everywhere.

I don't want to be anywhere but I want to go somewhere but here. Anywhere.

I'm randomly surfing the Net. I'm randomly keying in stuff.
I'm mindlessly staring at my computer screen, switching between windows.

I'm drinking water, blinking every now and then.

I feel like throwing up
I feel robotic.

I want to shop.
I'm tired. i want to sleep. I'm despressed. I want to throw up.

I'm feeeling mindless, soulless, stupiod. I want to cry.

I don't know what I want.

I have a breast inflammation. All over again. I can't deal with it anymore.


Anonymous said...

Relax dear..just don't let stress bog you down. Prevention is better than cure. Your body is giving indications that something is amiss. Get all the checks done..i am sure you will be fine. Take care

Aparna said...

Hey come on hang in there.. don't let it get bigger in your head - I know how that can be. Just go to the doc, maybe stronger antibiotics will clear it out for good. Definitely don't get stressed out - let me know if you need a good doc out there - sure you have your trusted one already, but if you do, can give you a couple of good names.